Avoid Placing Your Line on a Bundle of Nerves

by Mair Allen


there is, of course, something that binds us together:       a forest
green nylon rope          or a conditioned             thirty feet of jute

a larks head  
collapsing
into a square knot        the friction of an X

a shared goal of suspension            of disbelief
that there is anything besides         these two bodies in a gray room
lanolin sweetness                           rough adjustment’s rhythm—wrap and pull and pause
of apparent satisfaction    

we are learning             the lengths necessitated                      by our different circumferences           
rib cage deltoid trap      the plains across our breastplates       how far the stem
                           from neck                      to wrist   
                                                                                          we leave no space                       
unmeasured  or unconstricted                                           it is not the first time

our love has made it difficult                     to breathe                  we are learning
from men with beards  ( invariably )            on videos that wreck my algorithm       
faceless women                               I recognize now                   by their areola   

we leave the bind
at our wrists          tied with a bow
line             something that can be undone         
                                                                                      if one of us goes numb  

we take 
turns practicing the new patterns    squeezing fingers   to confirm 
                                                                                       we still feel everything
we take
blurry photos               the gaping aperture reveals our shaking         in its appetite for light



Mair Allen is a writer living in Minneapolis, MN. They are an MFA candidate in creative writing at Antioch University. Their work can be found in Griffel, Oroboro, Kithe and Aurora. They were the 2020 winner of the Mikrokosmos poetry competition. Additionally they are a member of the editorial circle of NOYO review.