Why I Hate Tequila Shots
by C. Riley
I was afraid
of what time would look like
without my shadow kissing
her heels, as she tended
to the liquor like a younger sister,
so I said yes to each tequila fist.
Our front porch was the only bar
we could afford to be at
past midnight. We’d prop
our backs against anything
as sturdy as our commitment
to intoxication and flick
American Spirits into our gravel
garden. I had never seen anything
more stunning than her confidence.
The way she held a lighter steady
without singeing her thumb.
The way she walked into a room
like every day was her birthday.
The way she alchemized a conversation
with an aux chord. So when she offered
to teach me how to kiss, I was an eager
student. Nevermind that we were 22
and had been kissing other people
for years. No one else was around
to charm her lips into other plans.
She was glowing like the quiet beam
of the street lamp was meant for only her
face. Of course. It was always only her
face. Even though I’d seen her every morning
over steaming coffee — all at once
we were brand new. When she said
the key was relaxing my lips,
I focused my buzzing blood
on letting loose until I was certain
I was worthy of her tender
mouth. I don’t know how long
we sat there, leaning into each other.
Learning. But it only took a second
for her to go inside and pour
another tiny glass
with salt.
C. Riley (she/her) wholeheartedly believes in the power of storytelling and iced coffee year round. Her work can be found in What Are Birds? journal, From Whispers to Roars journal and Hyades Magazine.